Mambukal Enchantment

Welcome to the forest spring Mambukal enchantment!

It was all gloomy and windy afternoon at around 4 pm when I set foot to the gate of Mambukal Resort. The trip was longer than the usual time, compared to the reviews I'd read on the internet. Before going there, I have done my assignment, reading articles and travel itineraries, one of those was written by Journeying James. Reviews were all lovely compliments and the yearnings of coming back to this place. At first, I tend to cancel this itinerary due to the added costs on my Bacolod budget trip. But then, as I've read about the seven falls in the place, my heart started to long of seeing a real falls. I think, I had not seen a waterfalls in my life yet, and to say seven in one place would be great! And so,that is the reason why I push through.

Narra Flowers

Narra flowers are falling around. As I walked along the yellow flower covered road, I look up and saw more flowers falling.. More and more flowers keep on falling… I kept my tears from falling too..This flowers bring back memories from the past. Two things in the past that still hunt me until now.. the first, the time when he loves to stay and walk with me. .. strong

and lively with a heartful glee I love to hear. And the second was on the hospital bed, where he lie withered and thin,, still a meek smile I can see…And his last words were… “ I want to be free like those narra flowers… isn’t it’s nice to be free,, flown by the air and eventually rest?” I remember him say. And he fall into a deep slumber...

2 WEEKS

Your question was: “What if i choose you?” With me, i had never offer you anything, nor promise everything. We barely knew each other. Two weeks together, that's all it took, two weeks for me to fall for you. That we never had the chance to spent some more good memories. All that we do is to share each other some funny long hours of talk, some yearnings of someone

to love and care and bountiful concerns, and nothing else.. People come and go in life, but also life goes on. And i can only be grateful you came nourishing my soul with the feeling i yearn to have all these years. God answered my prayer. It was not a matter of time, being a long one or a very short period of time. What is important is once in my life, i encountered being cared of, by you. And now that i feel like losing you, at least, no matter how short it had been, i can only be grateful of having you. I just realized something too, i just wanted you to be happy. My question is: Will you be happy with me? if you answers me yes, then i would surely do everything to be there for you and would love you for all the seconds of my life, but then, if you say, your past is where you’ll be happier, i guess, all i have to do is accept it and live life as usual, when there was no you yet… I dreaded to be alone again, and that it would be very lonely walking around the park without you… And yet, i just have too.Inspired by the movie, Dear John:)

Love 101

If I have a lesson in love from other people that i remembered too well, that is:

"when you love, give your 100%. Always think of him, as your one true love, and if life changes course and decided that his not really the one, then you can say to yourself with dignity that, here is this man I used to love with all my heart.. and you will never regret every part of it because you know you are always true and never make a fool out of yourself.

-this one came from the popular love adviser's local radio program i had listened to in the not-so-busy nights.

Living in a dormitory allows me to meet many people that in one way or another shares me great life lesson and this evening, Ate Claire tells me the following thoughts she herself learned:

1. When a woman fall in love and enters a relationship, she must always bear in mind that loving a man also means thinking only for the best in life for his partner, even if she was a part of it or not.

2. She may contribute to the growth of their relationship most especially for him to become a better person.

3. Loving also means dreaming your years together and trying your best to accept him as much as possible, always being there for him, no matter what happened and being diligent in every situation life may bring.

What is the implication to young woman like me? Say for example, for my own case. I can say that I am a submissive woman and I know, I easily fall for a leader  type or a person who can be dominating in a nice way. What ate Claire shares to me are things I might not understand since I never even tried being into a relationship. Some may say, those were for the martyrs only. However, having the guidance from people who already lived to it can save you from any mistakes in the future.

Love, it is a very complex, in every sense but then it is also simple and fulfilling. I have witness the perfect example for this: my parents. They had gone through ups and downs, i can say mostly downs, it was never easy but because they are the partners in life, love and all the other things life has to offer, they simply go through the difficulties and surpass the challenges. I can also say that the harmony and loving atmosphere in our home is one of the great blessings from God.

There is always this one and you may wonder who she or he maybe. But trust in the Lord's time. Remember, He works in mysterious ways and be happy because He made sure, there is always a time for everything, a time for every purpose under heaven.. a time to love..

Is there any lessons in love other had shared to you? Hold on to them and in time, you will preciously be thankful for these great gems.

POEM: My Angel

I do believe in angels. 

and i believe, you are an angel in disguise.

for even we have been apart,

 i can feel deep in my heart you are still there.

the feeling i thought was gone for so many years

surprisingly, it had been nurtured by my subconscious heart.

there is a right time, and so you always say. 

i agree.

and then, 

when i see your face, and your lovely eyes, 

i can feel my heart slightly leap.

to you, 

again and again and again.

i think, this will never be forgotten until in my deathbed.

and after my souls reincarnate, 

this heart will beat for you still and forever.

Something to look forward everyday

I love to wake up on Mondays,

to greet the week with cooking the breakfast gladness,

to see how my prof deliver the engineering lectures on awesome animations

and to meet my churchmates, especially the freshies!

57 ways to lighten UP

1. picture things in the clouds
2. go for a walk
3. build a snowman
4. build a snow fort
5. learn something new
6. get in an elevator and face the crowd
7. order a cheeseburger without the cheese
8. daydream
9. find a special place to be alone
10. start a pillow fight
11. watch a funny video
12. make up a foreign language and ask for directions
13. sing silly songs
14. talk to supportive people
15. make a gift for someone
16. paint something
17. grin like a goofball and watch people's reactions
18. run through the sprinkler
19. sit by the river
20. get a back rub
21. secretly do something nice for someone
22. pop loose popcorn in the microwave
23. invent a new laugh
24. doodle
25. start a journal
26. walk in the grass with your shoes off
27. play with the dog
28. glue a loonie to the sidewalk - watch people's reactions
29. go for coffee
30. catch snow flakes on your tongue
31. wear your oldest, comfiest clothes
32. ride a bike
33. take a deep breath
34. take several deep breaths
35. pretend you're a tourist in your own town
36. cuddle the cat
37. write poetry
38. squish mud through your toes
39. take a nap
40. study an ant colony
41. meditate
42. make a dough boy and put it through the garlic press
43. cry
44. look on the bright side
45. go for a hike in the woods
46. skip stones in the river
47. give someone a hug
48. ask someone for a hug
49. rearrange your bedroom
50. invent something
51. do volunteer work
52. relax in a warm bath
53. go swimming
54. be with a friend
55. read a good book
56. do yoga
57. look at the stars

My family's happy days

When it rains like how it's raining today, all I want to do is to do nothing at all. All I want is stay at home, cuddled up in bed or maybe, wear some thick socks and feel the softness and warmth of bed, or maybe go to my ading's bed who for sure, will not go to school (surely makes them happy) because of the heavy rain..and will join them sleeping and when we wake up with hungry tummies, we can smell the kamoteng kahoy being boiled by mama in the kitchen..then we will get up and make ourselves some hot milk, and papa, who went outside gardening will join us eating boiled kamoteng kahoy (w/c he had harvest from his garden) and we will talk about papa's childhood, his adventures in life, about how he met mama, (my little sister wil get super kilig and she will teased mama and papa, 'uiii, sweetheart'...') and we all laugh while papa will pretend to hug mama, which makes us all giggle...and then, after the merienda, we the kids then go back to bed and we will play 'warrior fight'. We will be dress with quilt and big pillows and will throw small pillows at each other, until we get tired laughing. Then we sleEp again, and when we wake up with the dElicious smell of the tinola mama's cooking.. We wil run fast at the taBle. The table's so inviting with the pandan scented steamed rice and the award winning tin0la waiting n the taBle. Papa and mama are already waiting for us.. We bowed together, papa leading the pRayer.. My little br0ther then will tease my li'l sis.. 'man0k ni mijoy datoy' he wil say. And my li'l sis will answer back. 'hala. Awan man0k kun. Agpayso,pa?' and my papa will answer too, 'madi, manok ni kuyam, data' and the table wil be full of laughter, my li'l sis laughs the loudest. And we'll eat happily together.. When it rains like this, it's lovely to dream, to go back to good old days, to reminisce happy life m0ments... Back home...ü

LLS : learning to live, somehow

Gloomy thing to say contrary to the good weather today, i had so many things in mind right now, i wish you were here so that i can have someone who can i talked to and clear those misty thoughts i have in mind. as if you were a sudden rain shower that can clear out every thing that is vague. it was a very busy March,...and right now, a very tiresome April, i am not very happy, i want to pour all my feeling out, as if i want to shout out loud. i wanna rest and sleep without someone bothering about me or my presence.

i am longing for someone to talk to... about my absence on church services, and why, on how to calm my mind regarding the arrangement my relatives are setting up with me, or is it only on my mind? about the end on the month date with a special friend, and about my going back to school on "June for MS. i am hoping everything for the best,. right now, first thing fist, i need to act on the present, act on the set priorities.. may everything be worth it as i always believe. i miss you so much, my sweeetheart. :(