June 17, 2014
I pursue my graduate study in Food Science with the goal in mind to have an stable teaching job after I finish.
I know it will not come so easy but studying my Masteral degree is not a monotonously about hardships. It comes in mixture of joy and worries, happiness and depression.
One time, I felt hopeless because my statistical analysis is not good. I can not seem to explain my result in the way I wanted to be presented. I felt in pain, when I myself is guilty for not giving my best, finding myself playing around and having no motivation ang focus at all. I felt more saddened.
I am very lucky, I thought. I still have ample of time to do it. I can write in a very relaxed pace. Though I have no innate knowledge about the test I am going to apply to my collected data, I have a vast of contacts to people who are knowledgeable about it, and what makes it a lot easier is that there are actually people who are willing to help me, even them can sacrifice their sweet good night sleep just to finish the analysis.
The problem lies in me. Myself. They said that your best enemy is yourself. For one, it os now happening to me. I can not even write normally because I myself is not trying my best. I have no efforts in studying even the most basic thing about statistics. And this will lead me to failure.
But I realized, myself is my best alley too. I need to help myself. This time I need to start making efforts. I will help myself move forward.
I know, my love of life will be always by my side so as, God who lend me the intellegence and patience to go on.
Am so blessed, I should not lose hope.
