Dear Love,
How are you? ive been wishing all the time to be with you. that can be travelling with you, seeing beautiful things around, or even computing the bills with you, teasing you about reading for so long at night that the lights are switch on all the time and you answered if who among us take a bath sooo long that keep the water bills high and i will then throw you some soft pillows and you will just laugh with my childishness. i wish you were there at my side everytime, as i feel empty and lonely right here. yesterday, i went out and see a movie by myself. see? i am not afraid not to be with you but then i thought that if you were with me, you'll joke all the way home because my eyes were really sore from crying in the movies and you will then advice me not to watch movies at home cause that way, i can just wet all the pillows we have by my tears. but then, i went inside the movies even without you. see, i am not scared now. i can go inside the movies by myself telling myself not to get used of having you around. well, i spend most of the day's hours in the bookstore too, and i just laugh at myself what if i was banned in the bookstores and movies? i am just thankful, i have all my time now to browse everything in the sale section, and i was just too shocked to see the 4 books i had reach from the shelves, and the cashier tells me the price, well, i just pay it anyway, but i know, if you were here, i'd be more wise on spending my money. you are so good at that things, analyzing... like greater value for money, cause you really know how much work it require to earn enough. Well, dear, i am hoping you wont frown upon seeing my books here. but i am so sure, on quiet times, when you came home, you will reach one of those while we read side by side quietly. i miss your silence, and the authority that silence brings. but then, i also miss your laughter, the frankness of your thoughts or the wildness in your eyes. Yesterday, was a fine day. maybe a perfect day for a date. i would be very busy chopping our favorite salad while your busy munchin on the carrots slices and i will ask you not to cause we will have nothing to eat when we get at the park. you will bring our favorite mat and ask why we didnt buy another one, when our mat is a little old. and ill look at you long enough and i know, you know the answer without even saying it. by then, the sun is enough to heat up the day and we can find a nice spot where we can open and laid our mat, sit together, bringing out my favorite book and making your back to lean on. we can be so silent for hours, just leaning on each other, me, reading, you, watching the blue sky, the fluffy clouds. i always wonder how much love you have for the clouds, and you are too crazy about them, thinking i am too are crazy about them too, and sometimes, you'll just rest your head on my lap and begin to nap. i cant stop myself from looking at your lovely face, endlessly thanking God, you came to my life. our world are full of silence but i am always grateful, we didnt have any mis understood moments, as if our hearts are talking and are comfortable with one another.... Sometimes though, there were times when you asked me the queries like, "do you think, Marcos is really dead?" and i would smile and say, "Ask her wife." I am really amazed by your political interests and craziness and i wont wonder one day if you'll run being the president of the Philippines, and you always answered back, "No. not really." sometimes, youll be scribbling on your sketchpad, sketching some funny political quips but you never send it to any publication. i guess, it was too political too. well, i had seen everything you draw from the smallest seedling to the tallest building, everything are alive, as i see them. but then, you say, you are just having fun with your drawings. well, that;s what you say but i guess, i can used them in making my own children's story book, and you say laughing, you will ask for a high price on every pig or chicken you draw. i ask you how much a rabbit cost and you say, thats for free, so i answered back, i think, ill gonna write about a king rabbit who marries a pauper lady rabbit and then give birth to many cute rabbits.. and you told me to go on writing.. as you always encourage me to write my novels, besides my cooking career, and you boosts my confidence in life and by that time, i will open some of our favorite snacks, lettuce to ceasar, cold from the coolman. and then, youd show how much you fancy carrots.. your my handsome rabbit, i guess. but that rabbit had been long gone.. i feel like alice in wonderland, lost, looking for you. how i wish, you'd find me here too, cause ive been waiting for you for so long. just remember that i so love you, and spending my seconds with you would not be very easy for both of us, still, we both know we can make it worthwhile. ,,
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